Dear Abba (LORD) GOD:
You ARE One and ONLY GOD who knows each one in the universe, who knows when the sun comes up and sleep. You know each one’s birthday/death date. There’s nothing hidden from you. YOU ARE Almighty, Incredible, Marvelous, Supernatural, Amazing, Wonderful, Counselor, Healers, Provider, Protector, Giver, Only one that is Good, YOU ARE; HE IS, You ARE! Thank you LORD Hashem, thank YOU and I Praise YOU today!
You know me when I was being formed LORD GOD Adonai; you know me before I was knit in secret; You know me when I was in mother’s womb. You know me more than I know myself; You know when I get up in the morning, when I speak, what my thoughts are; even far away off YOU already know what will I say and declare. You also know when I lay in bed, when I am away from you; when I grieve, when I laugh and rejoice and when I get lonely, alone again, again, again.
OF course YOU never leave me, Of course I am not alone, despite of the fact I can’t see anyone beside me. I tried to have company but when I read or a little have a glimpse of them, I become picky… I can’t let to of “me” to even replace YOUR Spirit company in me. I felt NOT right. Am I wrong dear GOD to be selective. Even my own husband I do not trust…my mother I trust but she also gets wisdom and counsel from you. Others may reflect what I’ve done wrong and before I feel justified, YOU being there for me, tells me I was wrong and I have to repent, right there.
YOU NEVER abandoned me; How did I know that. Ever since I was a child YOU visited me even in the midst of fear from rumor of bad spirits (ghost or scary creepy stuff) YOU allowed me to talk to YOU and YOU heard me. Thank you for being with me even at times of my sinful ways, disobedience, desiring something that’s not mine, stole things due to (buy candies, snacks) due to lack of thing (poverty) and lusting after those things that doesn’t satisfy. Thank you that YOU never rejected me on those times that I controlled my life and do what pleased me; even at times of rebellion that I did things on my own, made foolish decission. I didn’t know that YOU WERE watching me. I didn’t know for all those years that I was searching for true or my first LOVE; I did not know that YOU ARE my first LOVE; that YOU ARE what I was looking for.
I didn’t know that YOU had plans for me (Jeremiah 29:11) that YOU already know what is good for me that YOUR desires for me is not to harm me but to prosper me and give me a good future. I didn’t know in spite of rebellion, YOU yanked me out of miry thinking and clutter spaghetti life and took me in just as I was (am) and washed me and took me in YOUR Arms.
How precious are your thoughts for me O LORD, I can’t count for it is vast, I can’t count them at all; YOU hem me from afar. That is deep for me; in my language it means “surround and restrict the space or movement”, that means YOU can do this. O LORD Yes I permit you to “surround me and restrict all my space and/or all my movement of getting to where you want me, to place me in that path of righteousness.” Because if I do things, I always fall. I want YOU LORD; I give you permission to take over my life NOW and forever more, for I can’t do anything without YOU; yet you said I can do all things through Yashua who strengthens me.” Speak LORD today and Do the same to my children. I pray that they will desire you. I pray IN Jesus Name that Jackie, Davied and his wife and my grand children Isaiah and Elisha will desire YOU each day. I also pray that Tom (my distant) husband will desire YOU as HIS first LOVE and obey YOU). You said YOU will (if I ask in YOUR Name) give me the desires of my heart; for the Glory of God only, In YOUR Name O LORD my Hashem, Amen. 4th July 2014 Jax NC USA MMO