I just don’t know anymore. I do know that I’m being foolish.Help me understand. I need to understand that you aren’t far away but close. I need your presence. I just I’m lost. everything i do is just going through the motions. i’m not going through any troubles at all.But I am facing something critical. I’m little by little losing my first love. I don’t want that that to happen. I saw today how my mom was enveloped within your arms. Lord, wow, how you’ve ministered to her so much, how overwhelmed she is due to your infinite love. Lord, I don’t want that love I grew fond of to go away. I want to keep my first love and not lose it. Jesus I don’t want to lose you. That’s my problem, my hardship; that you are just so CLOSE, RIGHT NEXT TO ME but I just don’t know anymore. I just don’t know how is it that you can love me so. Lord, I’m being foolish feeling sorry for myself. now I understand. No matter what, no matter anything,NOTHING can take away what you’ve called me, your child, you’re beautiful child in whom you’ll always love and ALWAYS be pleased in. What we’ve got to understand is not to love you but that you love us. For if we don’t know that how than can we love you? Your presence is so close so near me but i don’t make an effort to come into it. You’re so close hugging me, loving me anyway. Now I know to come into your presence as who I am: I am a child of the one and only Yahweh, the true king.O Lord my God, Jesus I thank you for speaking to me through this letter . Sorry for wasting my time in useless things when you’re right there sitting down waiting for me to come towards you so you can wrap me in your loving arms. Jesus! O how I love you O Lord. I LOVE MY JESUS!! I LOVE YOU JESUS!!!! LORD GOD, MY FATHER YOU’RE SO WONDERFUL! GOD BLESS THE PEOPLE WHO MADE THIS WEBSITE. WOW, BECAUSE IN REALITY MY LORD IS. HE IS! He’s love is infinite, this is what i now understand.
- A child of God